The Light at the end of the Tunnel

December 11, 2015.
The day was bittersweet.

Though so excited to be finished with treatment, it was an odd feeling of uncertainty
because now I would be getting back to my normal life.

But what if I have a pain?
What if the scans I have over the next several months/years turn up suspicious?

But you know…life isn’t meant to be lived to question everything.
You make the most out of what you are given in this life, and you move on.
You ENJOY LIFE.

You don’t worry about the little mundane things that don’t matter in the big scheme of things.

Three times. There should be no one on this earth who should have to hear the words, “You have cancer” three times. But I did.
And it was hard.

During this trial, and the ones before, people ask how I maintain such a positive attitude. Though I am all about following my own advice, it wasn’t always easy.
Sometimes it was the absolute hardest thing to do.

But I have the greatest family and friends in this life. All of you, in some way, have motivated me through this trial and now I share my joy with you as I finish.

And my husband…there are not enough words in the world to describe how wonderful he is. He has been my rock through it all.
How many of you men could watch your pregnant wife/(later on) wife and baby daughter travel 2 hours away for an entire week, every 3 weeks, for 5 months?

Life never stops giving us struggles.
Some struggles are easy to overcome, others have a much harder road.
But when you stop seeing the beauty in the struggles, I believe you stop seeing the beauty in life.
You see…struggles allow us to see the bad, allow us to feel the bad, though we don’t want to –
but at the end of it, we get to see the good.
The good that this wonderful, crazy life we’re living is all about.

This is what my struggle has given me:
A beautiful baby girl who is perfect in every single way … an amazing husband who provides for his family in so many ways … the love of family that pales in comparison to anything else on this earth … and the opportunity to use my trials as ways to help others.

I have to thank God for helping me through this once again. My faith has been tested infinite times, but He keeps showing me that He has bigger plans in store for me. It wasn’t my time to be done here; it is my time to be the best mother and wife I can be. And I intend to be that.

Enjoy your life! You only have one.